I know I have been behaving badly, and it is causing you a lot of stress. I am not the kind of son you always wanted, and I need to change that now while I still have time. I need to fix myself and stop causing you stress with my thoughtless actions.
I need to work on my impulse control because I act without thinking, which is really stupid of me and can easily get me into a lot of trouble, as it has already happened.
I have made many bad decisions recently, and every time, I wish I could turn back time and redo everything and make the right choices. However, that’s not possible, so the closest thing I can do is start making the right choices now.
If I can’t redo the right choices in the past, I must do it in the present. Your expectations for me weren’t even that high, yet I still failed to meet them because I didn’t think before acting. I have always thought about myself and never thought about how you guys feel.
I’m sorry for everything negative that’s happened to you, and it’s all my fault. About my varsity dropout, I was so sure that I was doing the right thing and thought varsity was a waste of time, so I dropped out without informing you guys, and I never thought about the money my father provides with his hard work.
I’m sorry about all the back-talking I did when you were mad at me. I was trying to tell you my opinion or the reason why I did whatever you were yelling at me about. I am sorry you took it as disrespectful back-talking, but I did not mean for it to seem like that. I was trying to argue politely, but I guess I’m not good at the “polite” part.
I know I won’t ever completely earn your trust back for me to make the right decisions, but I’ll try my hardest to at least earn even a tiny bit of it back. These past few months have been the worst of my life, and I’m the reason they were so bad. I’m the reason why I’ve been making my life miserable. Everything bad that has happened to you or to me has been my fault. I’ll take all of the blame. Hold me responsible for everything bad that has happened recently because it’s been my fault.
If I hadn’t been so stupid and senseless, none of this would’ve happened. Your disappointment and anger come from me and me only, and knowing that makes me feel horrible inside. If I can partially change that, it would mean the world to me.
You don’t deserve any of the negative emotions you’ve felt recently because you’re good people, and I know that if it weren’t for me, you wouldn’t have felt any of the negative emotions you’re feeling now. When I wasn’t a failure, you were always there for me when I was down. Now you’re so disappointed in me that whenever I feel down, no one is there for me. I deserve it, and you shouldn’t give me any support until I get a job.
I’m sorry that I hurt you emotionally, and I never listened to you, and I guess it’s coming full circle now. I’m getting what I deserve. I’m sorry for not thanking you enough when you provided everything I needed to become successful. You provided everything I needed to become successful, and somehow I still found a way to toss it out of the window.
The only word I can think of right now is sorry, but I know that’s not enough. Just saying sorry won’t help anything.
I know we’re on bad terms, and I really need to do something about that. I will try my best to improve our relationship. I still know that you guys loved me the same as you used to, but I never realized how much you guys loved me. I’m sorry for being a disappointment. You guys deserve a better son.
I know you’ll probably never forgive me for the things I’ve done, and I understand that. But I’ll still make sure to meet your expectations from now on.
I know I can’t reverse the damage I’ve done, but hopefully, I can make it a little better by stepping up my game and trying my hardest.
I’m sorry for being so defensive about things when I should’ve listened to you and taken your advice. I now know that oftentimes I’m wrong and you’re right, so being defensive isn’t helping either of us.
From now on, I’ll try to stop being defensive, and if I want to say something, I’ll tell you first, so you know that I’m not trying to back talk, but I’m trying to help you understand my crazy thought process.
I’ve been selfish and thinking of myself over others, which has to change, or else I’ll never get better at anything. I need to stop being so defensive when you’re trying to give me constructive criticism because even if you’re yelling and swearing at me, you’re still there to help me, and I haven’t realized that until now.
I’m sorry for ruining your dream. It was never my intention to make your life miserable, but I guess I’ve done it. It’s the worst possible thing I could’ve done, and I did it because I didn’t use my brain enough when I needed to use it the most. I guess I just don’t have any common sense because anyone with common sense wouldn’t have done the things I did, and as a result, their life wouldn’t be so bad now.
I’m sorry for bringing hurt, hate, and shame into the family, and to my three sisters, I’m really sorry for letting you guys down. You three always support me and are probably the best three sisters in the world. I can’t specifically say which one of you three is the best and kind, loving, and caring to me. To me, you three are the best sisters anyone could ask for. I’m really sorry for being a failure.
I’m sorry for failing you, making you mad, getting into so much trouble, and being such a bad student. I’m sorry for not thanking you enough.
I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done that impacted you in a negative way, and I hope I can fix some of our issues in the near future.
The shame I have caused our family is something that weighs heavily on my heart. I want you to know that I am committed to doing whatever it takes to make things right and earn back your respect.
— Killua Zoldyck. [Original article Jerry].
